I'm pathetic and the epitome of a failure son, brother, and friend.


It's no wonder why no one has loved me. Not only do I not deserve it, I apparently repel it.

Sometimes I just want to die...

I'm tired of being lonely. And I'm tired of coming in second. I just want whats mine. I'm breaking down. God, somebody, ANYBODY, please hear me and stop me before I fall too far.

It's pathetic how much I fight for your attention. I swear, this is the fucking story of my life. I ALWAYS put so much more effort than the other. For once, I just want to know the effort, time, and care I put into my relationships are not going unnoticed and are treated like something of value. I'M pathetic. I'm so done trying, but I still can't stop.